All throughout my life, and even in the future, I will be struggling to fight the desires of my flesh. It's hard to fight it because so much is involved! Like emotions, feelings, previously held conceptions and thoughts, assumptions, desires, and needs. (Haha some overlap, but still). God has been really pushing me this year to find true comfort in Him and in only Him. One day I think I have, but then another day I find myself running away from His hands, His warmth, and His comfort. If life was like a telescope, I would be trying to figure things out myself and see things through my eyes...Many times I see God trying to tell me to...
“step away from the telescope, Jono – and look at me for who I am.” Each step I take away from my telescope, I am able to see a bigger and grander God--a God that is so big that I will never be able to completely understand Him in this human body. Everytime I step back, I am in even more awe and amazed by His grace. All the things I found comfort in this world, is so dirty to His comfort and His perfect and Holy and pure cloth of righteousness.
But because of my stupidity and lack of strength to over come my desires, I step back toward the telescope and shove my eye into the lens, hoping to grasp and make tangible my transient life.
Please forgive me Lord for I am weak. Please....
